I started painting again after almost two and a half years of not even thinking about art. As a matter of fact I actually decided not ever to go back to painting. And for all this time I wasn't aware of why I made such a decision. And now after all this time I have figured out WHY!
My dear cousin and friend Denis Gavric died approximately 3 years ago. He was the person which opened that creative door for me back in the year 1998. He was a professional piano player and composer. He was also teaching piano full time in two music academies. A very talented musician. After he died painting became something very bitter in my life... also I stopped listening to classical music all together and transformed form a very sensitive and emotional person to a very stiff and aggressive person.
After seeing my psychologist for a few sessions things started being clearer and my "emotional me" came out once again!
In October 2008 I started painting again. This is my first painting this after being reborn.
I am trying to paint without any plans or expectations (which isn't that easy honestly). To be able to paint without "thought" I rather listen to music which brings me into a transcendental mode opening the gate between my energy and the canvas.
At first I was afraid of painting again and the whiteness of the canvas did scare me. For that reason I decided to break that "whiteness" with fine sand mixed in black Gesso. I used brushes to apply paint.
I called this painting "Freediving No.1"
The next photo shows a detail of this painting. This detail is actually the best part of this painting and should be a painting for itself.
My new working table :-) feels good !!
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